We imagine the road to recovery long, sorrowful, and lonely. In life, I have discovered that moving forward doesn’t always feel progressive. When you remember your purpose in life or the goal at the end of the road, do your best to be mindful of that and then begin. I’ve read that faith is the bridge between our uncertainty and the reality God offers to us. When we step forward in faith, completely dependent on God’s will, suddenly that long road to healing becomes shorter. The difficult days imagined ahead become days to smile about. Most importantly, in the last month of my life, I have conquered thoughts and feelings I thought would have taken me years to let go of and I could not have done that without God. I wake up knowing that I am me. I am proud of what I do, who I have been, what I have learned. I can live in peace knowing that though I am far from perfection, I am much better than before. That is what is important. We must come out of our trials and experiences, improved, better, radiant. I can say, it is very nice to feel this way. Lifted… happier. God’s grace has carried me, provided for me, and has guided me back to his saving mercy and love. I couldn’t ask for more. Though I still have a little bit more to go on my road to complete spiritual recovery, it feels great knowing I’m on the right track. In your next crossroad in life, remember that if it isn’t a step forward in faith, you are probably just running in place. Remember who you are.
It’s good to be back,
M.Makahanaloa
